Sad... sigh...

my roommate took a kitten back to my room a couple of months back. now, the hostel management has caught wind of the kitten staying there. they want to throw the poor thing out... honestly, i'm feeling down right miserable cos i really care about that kitten... sigh! i was just thinking of me having to put the kitten in PAWS... she'll be safe there... but will she remember me and my roomie? will she feel betrayed cos we 'abandoned' her?

i'm also feeling pretty peeved at my stupid roommate. this problem would never have happened if she had just left the kitten with it's mum... stupid stupid stupid... honestly, this is unnecessary stress for me la... sigh! i don't think she could give a shit about the kitten. when i told her about the hostel wanting to throw the kitten out, she didn't give much a reaction. i couldn't hear any sadness in her voice... "i think better if i give her away also la. she's very lonely in the room i think..." WTF?!?! i mean like, here i am, feeling so sad that the kitten wouldn't be the first thing i see on entering my room, that i won't have an adorable ball of fur to cuddle with when i nap in the afternoon. she couldn't give a rat's ass about the kitten...

proof? fine, just the other day, she lost her keys... and i so happened to have gone home that day. so for the whole day, poor kitty had nothing to eat but the little bit of cat food and 1 and a half sausage i fed her from earlier... for a freaking whole day!!! that's so irresponsible. she could have told the hostel people that she left her keys in the room then borrowed the spare, then go back to the management room to return the spares... like really wtf... sigh! another example... if we have classes from 9 - 5 in uni, she just comes in at 12 to feed the cat, then leaves, or sometimes, doesn't at all... she's an irresponsible owner... i don't know if she does that because she knows i come in during lunch to have my meals in the room then feed the kitten at the same time or what la... but why la...

in a way, having to give the kitten away is good for her, but then sigh... my classmate had wanted to adopt the whole family when we first found the kittens... it was a family of two kittens, and the mum. but my roommate just had to go take the kitten away... grr... now the kitten has to go to a animal rescue... aiyah... don't know what to think la. maybe it was my wrong to not tell her the inhumane conditions she had given to the kitten when we kept her... i really don't know la.

i'm just going to sit here tonight, waiting for confirmations from anyone if they want the kitten. :( sadly, i can't hold onto the kitten for very long... or i would, to try find a good home for her...